itsss show time!

well its that time of year again. all the cyt shows are going on and i've got to see them all.

unfortunately i can only see a few because they are all on the same weekends.

but i did skip school and find time this week to see a few shows.

i saw little mermaid and cinderella and loved them both! both counties are so talented! i never realized how much i missed being in shows with those kids until i see them all. it brings back such good memories being at hhs and seeing everyone. i wish i could see the shows a few more times.

the last rehearsals for mulan were this weekend. its crazy to think that in a week it will all be over- it flew by! its amazing to think that we did a whole show in 6 weeks. two months ago we were just getting materials and music- and now its already show time.

i have to say this is the least worried i've been about a show. usually i'm freaking out by tech week, if i'm in the show or on the team. but for this show i feel we are right where we need to be and its all going to fall in to place. just like it always does. i really love the kids and parents in this county. they are all just such good kids with great hearts. its been so awesome to see them grow in their characters in these past weeks, they all have come so far. i can't wait to see all the extra stuff they bring this week! i think its really going to be an awesome show!

so this week is tech week which means the craziness begins. thankfully i will only have to drive back and forth monday and tuesday and then we'll be staying up there the rest of the weekend. if you like china, dragons, karate, egg rolls, some good laughs, bo staves, lots of fabric, & long road trips- COME SEE MULAN! i promise you will not be disappointed.

what makes you feel alive?

i think i've found it.

lately i've been really concerned, worried, doubting about next year. i'm afraid ill go away to school and i'll hate it. hate the people, hate my classes, hate what i thought i wanted to spend the rest of my life doing.

i've had this big fear that i'll be at school, studying the major i finally decided on, and hate it. then what am i going to do?

i've prayed about it lately, and as usual god provides. i realized that what i planned on doing is something that i love. which i guess is kind of pretty awesome.

i'm on the school newspaper and i've gotten to interview a lot of people in the past few weeks and i absolutely LOVE IT. it is fascinating learning about all these people that i've seen everyday at school. i love getting to see the work that they do, and the things they are passionate about. its an amazing feeling getting to talk to somebody about something that they feel like they were meant to do their whole life. if gives me hope that someday i'll be able to say the same thing.

i finally finished my admissions essay for columbia, and i had to explain why i want to be a journalist:

The reason I love to write is because for those few brief minutes that someone is reading your writing, they are immersed in your story. Through my words, I can make people feel a certain way, and take them to new realizations of themselves and others. I desire to be a journalist for that very reason; I want to show people how they can create change throughout the world and within themselves.

i hope i can spend the rest of my life feeling this way and maybe someday say,

"i was always meant to do this, & i love it."
that is something i've always wanted to say. and i think i might just be able to say that one day.

its like one of my all time favorite quotes says:
"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
-- Harold Whitman

do what makes YOU feel alive.

#83 Bad Memories of Highschool

Today I had a day completely free.

No school. No work. No CYT. I honestly do not remember the last time this happened. It was nice to have a day and do nothing productive. I forgot what that felt like. I wish it would come around more often.

So I spent my day making a dinosaur cake- surprisingly it tasted amazing, not to brag or anything. I think watching all those Ace of Cakes episodes has been paying off. It didn't look so pretty, but hey I am just a beginner.

I went to Borders which I do whenever I am bored and I found thiswonderful book & the website to go with it.

Stuff White People Like

So enjoy! It brought me a few laughs, and it is surprisingly mostly true, for me at least. See how many things you like.

Be Mine.

Valentines Day.

It seems to me there are two types of people on Valentine’s Day. They either love it or hate it with every fiber of their being. You either receive a nice valentine and some candy hearts or an explanation about how the holiday is just a holiday created by hallmark to make more money.

What’s my take on the whole thing?
Honestly, I don’t care.

It’s one of those holidays where it’s nice, but hey I’m not going to do anything special. It’s like Arbor Day, it comes and goes and I don’t go all tree planting crazy.

Maybe it would be different if I had a boy, but I don’t so I’m not going to let this holiday bring me down.

Love is a scary thing. A wonderful thing but scary all the same. I like to think that there is someone out there that is my soul mate and I’m destined to be with. That sounds so corny and cliché but it is something I really believe. Some man is out there for me, bless his soul.

Lately I’ve felt God putting it on my heart to be patient for love. It’s out there, but it just isn’t time yet. Lately all the passages I’ve been reading are about just that, and knowing that God has a plan.

I have no doubts that this is true.

You’re out there Mr. Right and I can’t wait to meet you.

snowmageddon, snowmenator, supersnowmen....or not

snow.snow.snow.

i used to love the white flakey stuff. the first snowfall was the best day of the year. & we would pray that there would be enough to cancel school. snow meant a chance of canceled school, making snow forts, snowball fights, hot cocoa....

but then i learned to drive, and my relationship with snow took a drastic turn.
now when i hear snow reports on the radio the feelings of joy i once had quickly change to frustration. i do love snow around christmas time, but after that it would be fine with me if it didn't come back. snow is beautiful, it is just frustrating when you have to be places.

not to mention no one can drive in snow. i understand it is good to be cautious while driving in snow. and if its icy outside i totally understand! but when a few flakes are coming down there is no reason to go five miles an hour! there comes a point when being too careful is a bad thing. you aren't going to slide into a car when there's no ice on the road!
of course then there is also the people that drive like maniacs in blizzards. do not ride my butt when it is icy on the roads. do not cut me off in a blizzard. do not go 40 miles over the speed limit through a snow storm. you are causing people to drift off the road.

i believe george carlin says it best:

Have you ever noticed that anybody driving slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac? -George Carlin

my new years resolution was to not be an angry driver, so im letting out all my driving frustrations via my blog.

these are just the frustrations i have experienced with the "huge snow storm" these past few days.

there was an earthquake this morning. *cue people freaking out*
i of course slept through it because nothing wakes me up when im asleep.
i love how much everyone is over reacting. it was a 4.3 people, no buildings are destroyed, no ones hurt, lets calm down. there was a facebook group started called "i survived the northern illinois earthquake." my goodness california is laughing at us.

i cannot wait for this week to be over. i just need a break. working everyday is really starting to take a toll on me. i was ready to fall asleep at work today. there are not enough hours in the day. i have so much stuff i need to get done by friday, i probably shouldn't be blogging, but ah well.

off to get some zees.

ohh life.

so at rehersal a few weeks ago we had to share verses that really made an impact on our lives for a devotional.

this is the verse right now that is really helping me through everything. lately whenever i'm feeling lost i open up my bible- great thing to do by the way. & i always turn to the perfect verse. god works in amazing ways i tell ya.

i don't know lately i've felt stuck.
its like i have the world at my finger tips but i can't so anything.
i want to go out in the world and live.
but i can't. i have to do this or that.
i guess rountine is just getting to me. i feel like i could be doing so much more with my life but i'm not.


i keep reading all these bible verses about staying on god's path and that things happen all for a reason and i know i have to wait things out. its just hard sometimes.

...

You ever have one of those days where nothing goes your way?

Well I'm having one of those weeks....or couple weeks?

I'll blog about it later.

But for right now here's a song that expresses it pretty well.
ESCAPE.

I am the Cake Boss

I have a guilty pleasure....


& it is watching cake decorating shows.

My TV recordings are full of Cake Boss and Ace of Cake episodes.
I think it is so amazing the different ways you can make cakes, these people are mega talented.

I love baking. I have to say the cookies and cakes I bake actually taste pretty good. I've mastered the cookie cake. Whenever I'm bored or depressed I'll bake a cake or make some cookies. It makes me feel better instantly. I feel like I have control over something, I can be creative, and of course eat cakes. Of course baking makes you feel instantly better! Atleast for the time being. You eat some chocolate chip cookies and try not to enjoy yourself. Impossible.

Sometimes I think about maybe going into the culinary arts and trying my hands at a pastery class. It would be so awesome to own my own bakery or restaurant. If only I could have like five different careers. That way if one didn't work out I could switch to another and not have wasted hundreds of thousands of dollars on something. Maybe if this whole journalism thing doesn't work out I'll just start a cake decorating show on TLC. The Blunk Cake Baking Machine. The name needs work but you get the point.

I found this website that has a bunch of cakes that people find in stores that have gone horribly wrong. A lot of poop frosting and spelling errors. Some of them are pretty hilarious.
If you want a good laugh & like cake: Cake Wrecks